Eh...

After a month of being surrounded by people... having someone to talk to whenever... going to sleep and waking up with someone around... it kind of sucks being back in my lonely apartment.

The fact that I've only worked one day thusfar... when everybody else has been back to work since last week doesn't really help the fact either. Being here in my apartment... there isn't really much to do besides go online.

I'm running... no, actually... I take that back... I've run out of things to do online.

I am going to work tomorrow... but, I feel like the damage has been done. I've already have thought too much about how Ofunato, though it's a gorgeous place and though the people here are incredibly nice... it just doesn't quite compare to the lifestyle I'm used to.

I did manage to survive and not even think about how dead Ofunato can be before my winter break... but 28 days of hanging, joking around with, making fun of, being a bum with, and interacting with people like I'm used to only made me realize what I've been missing.

Hopefully I can finally get back into the swing of things like I was before... seeing that my work schedule is finally getting back to the way it was before... but, I do worry that the seed has already been planted.

I feel that it will only be a matter of time before that seed... my thoughts of how much I miss being surrounded by the company of many... begins to flourish and blossom into a big tree that can no longer be ignored.

But, at least I know there are some comforts and good things still capable of making me chipper.

I went out to search for a place that sells earring/piercings since I lost all of my previous earrings/piercings two weeks ago. I also wanted to get out of my apartment and break the monotony of waking up, eating, going online, using the bathroom, getting back online before going to sleep.

Unfortunately... being out and being unsuccessful made me realize how there's not much to do around this area. Not only that... but everywhere I went... I saw how most stores and places close at 8pm. This area basically dies off by 9pm... how can a whole town just die off by 9pm... I can't comprehend. 9pm is soooo early... there's so much time left before going to sleep... at least, for me there is.

I did manage to waste about 4 hours out and about... but, it wasn't exactly the best time. Luckily though... I made one last stop at this cool clothes shop. The dude working there recognized me... and he began to talk to me. The lady who runs the shop brought me some ginger tea and told me to sit and get comfortable and gave the dude a break and we just talked. They were both really cool and nice... and it just took my negative thoughts away. I don't know how long I spent in the store and talked to them... but, it was just something I needed. I ended up buying two beenies, and then eventually left.

When I stepped out... I realized it was snowing. It was more like flurries... but, that's good enough for me. It made me really happy!

So, hopefully being back at work and having more of these random experiences kill off these negative thoughts... especially since I told my company I am willing to renew my contract... which most likely means I'll be here for another year.

Heh heh... don't want to be starting off the year with negativity.

Well... that's what's been on my mind these past two days... hopefully now that I've written it down... I can basically put it to rest.

Later!