Hopefully Japanese Will Always Be A Part Of Me

I passed the JLPT - N4!

It's not exactly the level that states that I'm fluent, but regardless I am proud and excited to have passed this next level.

It might be a small step, but that is one step closer to achieving my goal and dream. I've stated a couple of times, how much I'd hate to be 40 or however old... and say, "I used to speak Japanese once..."

That would kill me so much because this is not a language I was born into. Learning Japanese is something I have been attempting since... what, 2006? I'm reaching 5 years of having studied and attempted to learn this language. That's pretty much a fifth of my life. How many things can I say that have taken up a fifth of my life.

That's why it means so much to me that I keep this language. Like I said... it isn't something I was born into. Spanish was my first language... and being born in America and going to school in America gave me the opportunity to easily learn English without even trying. Though I might have forgotten some of my Spanish (from lack of use, especially in Japan)... and though sometimes it seems like I have yet to master the English language... heh heh... I know that I will never forget these languages because I never had to learn them... they were just instilled in me... they are a part of me.

This does not apply to the Japanese language... so, it's something I have to struggle with and continue to keep the motivation I have. Sometimes I just feel like quitting altogether, but that's only when I feel defeated. I can only hope that I never really actually feel the need to quit. I can't say there are other thing that I have attempted for this long, and giving up just doesn't seem like an option anymore. How can I quit something that I've put so much effort into?

I might never master the Japanese language... but, I can only hope to continue to improve... even if ever so slightly and slowly.

This way, I'll be able to do something with Japanese once I start my life back in America. By doing so... I can guarantee that I will never lose my Japanese language.