Eh...

Yeah... I've been pretty unproductive with this blog... and that's mostly cause I haven't had any motivation to type in it.

Ever since the earthquake... something inside of me has changed... and, though I'm not exactly depressed or bummed... I am not the same.

I was riding this Life High for a lot of months... nothing was bringing me down and I felt as if I had found this unending supply of happiness.

That, of course... was pre-earthquake.

Post-earthquake me... I don't know... not sad... not happy... just am?

I think that's probably worse... wouldn't you agree?

To be this empty vessel with no emotions surging through your body...

I'd like to clarify, however... that I do have happy moments. These moment are when I'm surrounded by my Japanese friends. They are such great and genuinely, undeniably good people. It's good to be in their presence and they help me in more ways that one.

But, when I'm by myself... I just seem to be in this rut.

I know it's not the earthquake that caused it... I know it was a bunch of things combined that just happened in the same time frame.

Changing schools being one of these events... I mean, I do like this new school... but, so many things bother me about it. But, really... there's no point in me listing these small, petty things... because, the main reason there even are small, petty things bothering me is because the new school isn't my old school. Since it isn't my old school... I'm being stubborn and hesitant to accept it... thus, I subconsciously find things that bother me... and thus keep me from liking it.

Anyway... I just hope I get back into the presence of the Life High I experienced for so many months. I guess, in a way... having experienced that Life High actually works against me... since, when I'm not experiencing it... everything just seems a little more dull... less enjoying... nothing positive to mention about it.

Oh well... let's not end this blog on a negative.

Let me list things on the horizon to look forward to:

-Going to Taiwan in July.
-Two of my great friends will be coming to Japan come August... I can only pray, wish, hope and beg that they get placed near me!
-Summer break will be coming around... and I hope to get a lot of traveling in.
-My brother's getting married in November... so, I will be making a trip back home to Miami!

Keep your head up to the sky, Vic! You have all those stars to reach out for and to brighten your path when all seems dark!