Where Are You, Excitment?

Maybe it's the fact that it's Monday... or the fact that it's a gloomy day... but, I'm kind of feeling... well... without any feeling.

It's like I'm this empty, hollow case of who I am supposed to be... a bit robotic maybe.

What I mean is that I am in this state where things are just repeating themselves... I'm basically on autodrive because I feel as if there is nothing special or exciting happening currently in my life.

I wake up... go to work... come back home... do absolutely nothing with my life... go to sleep... and wake up to start the whole cycle once again.

How absolutely uninspiring.

I need some excitment in my life.

But, what is this excitement that I'm craving?

I can't answer that... and I think that's what makes it more frustrating.

What is it that I need to do to get out of this current rut? Because, I do do things occassionally.

This past Friday... I went to karaoke and had a lot of fun... yesterday, I hung out with a friend all day and had fun.

Yet, I wake up on Monday feeling unfulfilled?

There's obviously a bigger picture here that I'm not seeing... or, can it actually even be the smallest subtle change that will appease this desire for excitement.

Man... even this blog entry seems pointless... I have no idea what I'm writing about... there is no real inspiration behind it other than the fact that I'm bored at work and wanted to do something to pass the time.

Hopefully it is just a gloomy Monday woe I'm currently experiencing... because living your life on autodrive is not interesting at all.

You're supposed to live life... not just let it pass you by...

::sigh::