It seems that nowadays... this blog is mostly just for releasing steam or venting... or trying to get thoughts out of my mind.
I hope people don't get the wrong idea about my situation here. I'm still very much enjoying my life in Japan and enjoy my job a lot.
I have to keep reminding myself that I'm here for me... and only me. This was my decision... nobody forced me here. Nobody suggested it... I wanted to come to Japan and teach English for many reasons... and not one of those reasons involved anyone else. That's why I shouldn't let others get to me...
... but, in all honesty... as much as we say we don't care what others say or think... it's not true. At least, I know it's not the case with me.
People do get to me. I'm just used to people getting along with me... that it confuses me. I guess I can't really cope with douches, assholes, and just people that don't get me. And for some reason... it just seems that Japan is full of them. And, it's actually not the Japanese. It actually tends to be the other foreigners themselves.
The thing that bothers me the most... is that since so many people are like this... it's beginning to make me think it might just be me.
But... even if it is me... I like the way I am. And I also know of a bunch of people that like me the way I am... so, I just need to keep telling myself that... that way I won't change. I like me... and that's all that really matters at the end.
So yeah... just need to keep telling myself... dude... you're here for you. You came here for you. You love everything about Japan. Don't let other foreigners get to you.
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