Graduation

Though this isn't my first year in Japan... this is my first time really experiencing kids graduating.

We've been going through rehearsals for the past two weeks... and, out of nowhere, I tend to get hit with this random sense of emotion.

It's usually when the kids are singing or there's music being played.

I kind of just look at my graduating sixth graders and feel a bit of accomplishment and sadness (but in a good way) at the same time.

I guess in a way, I also feel that this graduation is a ceremony for myself. Last year I didn't really feel welcomed at all my schools and I just didn't really like my situation.

I was happy to leave and though I miss my students... some of the teachers and schools just made it all negative.

But, now... this year... with my elementary school. It's the complete opposite. I've bonded with everyone so much and I truly feel part of the elementary community. I also have seen these kids basically everyday weekday of the past year... and, well, I feel a special connection to them. I feel like they are actually my kids and they graduating or moving up a grade.

It's weird, because even though I do teach English... I never really considered myself a teacher teacher. But, with this graduation... it's definitely made me proud of them... so, I guess I finally see myself as a teacher... and it feels nice!

So, this is why the graduation is a celebration for me too. I experienced an awesome, incredible year with this school and it's members... and I really hope to return come April.

I'm pretty sure I am... but, nothing wrong with a little bit of hope... heh heh...