I'm really excited about my move and my new life in Tokai...
...
... but, it was only a matter of time before some sort of doubt came to me.
I don't know why... but, late last night I've just had these looming thoughts come to my mind... and sleeping it off didn't exactly get rid of them.
Hopefully making them public will help ease things.
I know I'm going to enjoy Tokai... but, it's only natural to worry about new and unknown things.
First, I'm a bit worried about being in Tokai basically by myself.
Moving to Ofunato was relatively easy since I had somebody else with me... so, it was easy to adapt when you had someone else dropped off in a new place.
This time... it's just me. Exciting... but a bit nerve-wracking as well.
I have to meet a bunch of new people once again. I managed to make friends in Ofunato and Iwate... but, it did take some time. I'm very open and social... but, it all honesty... I'm not good at making first impressions and am usually not up for meeting new people by myself. I don't know if it's coming out the way I'm trying to say... or basically just making me sound stuck up.
Basically... I'm not myself when I meet people straight up. Having friends and people around me make me more comfortable to be myself... so, it's easier for me to meet new people when surrounded by those I already know.
::shrugs::
I know what I mean in my head... so, sorry I can't really find the words to express myself accurately. I have yet to fully comprehend the gift of words and how you can use them effortlessly.
For the most part... I'm just worried that I might resort to keeping to myself and not really venturing outside of my apartment and workplace... nor attempting to meet new people. I know how I can be... and though I am fully conscious of how I can be... it's a completely different thing for me to actually be able to fight it or attempt to step outside of what happens naturally to me.
::sigh::
Well, these are the thoughts plaguing me right now... and, I'm hoping that I can overcome them with ease.
Other than that... don't get me wrong... I am really excited about my move and the new experiences that await me... really really.
4 comments:
::cough cough:: HOBBY NIGGA!
Either way, I don't think you give a bad first impression. I don't remember thinking badly of you the first time i met you-but on the other hand, I should probably look back into my diary to check :o)
So you are in a new city, congrats! No go out there and give me some jugo. kthanksbye :o)
What you mean?!?
You like hated me for the first two weeks when we were in Japan... heh heh.
LOL! I had to take a minute and think about it. Then i had to consult my diary. (Well, my last 2 diaries, because I filled up the pages in those and I didn't know which diary it was in, and the current starts at 6-12-08 ) Yes I did look :o)
Actually, I think you and Christian were the only two people who i literally said, "I don't like them..they are assholes."
HOWEVER! My first impression of you was on the plane and you let me play your DS and i thought that was nice. You, my friend, gave me a bad 2nd impression. ;o) Maybe you should worry about your 2nd impression.
Oh man... this whole time I was thinking I don't make good 1st impressions... in never occurred to me that I might make bad 2nd impressions. But, now that I think about it... it probably makes sense. I make a good first impression... and just assume I could get with anything right away at the second meeting... heh heh...
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